I’ve been feeling a little dry creatively lately. I’ve been lacking in ideas for blog posts and I’ve just come to realize the same has been true in my home and work as well. The simplest tasks of fluffing pillows and taking pictures has just felt so draining to me.
I’m grateful for this space of beauty and purpose here on the blog, but I want to open myself up to allow it to change and grow as I change and go through different seasons. I have some apprehension in changing it though and I think that’s what I’ve been avoiding. I feel such a sense of gratitude to you as my readers, but also an obligation for some reason to keep this about decorating only. Yet, you need to know, that honestly, I’m not exactly sure what I’m doing. I’m not a professional designer, certainly not a writer, and not even sure what my goals are here. I started this journey simply as a way to document my new decorating work I was doing. Its turned into so much more than that for me and now I’d like to change it to go beyond even that. All of this to say, I’m beginning to drift and feel myself at times avoiding what I used to love.
I recently read Elizabeth Gilbert’s book Big Magic and she talks some about this phenomena of the creative life- a restlessness, a disappointment, a feeling of failure. Rather than dwelling on it and trying to figure out what it all means though, she says to just keep moving: to own it and move on, even to a different sort of creative work altogether. Apparently Einstein did this as well and called it “combinatory play.” He would play the violin when he was having trouble with a math problem. After a few hours of playing, he could finally solve it.
In her book, Gilbert says, “… wave your arms around. Make something. Do something. Do anything. Call attention to yourself with some sort of creative attention, and – most of all- trust that if you make enough of a glorious commotion, eventually inspiration will find its way home to you again.”
So this is me doing something. While I won’t be playing the violin (or solving math problems!), things might change a little around here at The House of Figs. It will always be about beauty & purpose, but may be a little less specifically about decorating- for now anyway. I’m longing to share a little more of my personal life, what I’ve been reading or thinking about lately. Maybe some of our garden. Paul and I are dabbling in art direction and photography for a nonprofit company and I’d love to share some of that creative process as well. I hope you’ll stick around as I hopefully get un-stuck; and as always, I hope to hear from you along the way.